Computer Issues

Should be back regularly by the weekend.

Break

Just a quick update, I will return to my regular schedule on Monday, and for now please enjoy the break.

2-14-13

For today,
I will simply say,
Happy Valentines Day.
Now go away...

Feelin' It

It takes me awhile to get into the zone. Once I do it is game over for whatever goal I am tackling.

She was the most beautiful girls I had ever seen in my life. Her flowing golden hair danced just off the top of her flawless alabaster shoulder. She was wearing these squarish black framed glasses that tied together her round face beautifully. And her smile, oh lord her smile, it was as if all life came into existence because of her smile. In a room of thirty students it was simply her, and her alone that I couldn't keep my eyes off. If I were a fourteenth century painter looking for a model of an angel she would've been it. I should have bent over backward to show her that I was interested. But I was seventeen and not old enough to understand the difference between love and lust. She wasn't looking for a single use guy, she was looking for a partner. I have never been good at dating, I am brash, rude, and sarcastic  A terrible recipe for a potential partner.

I Have No Idea What I am Doing

As if it wasn't obvious by now, I have very little (if any) idea what I am doing most days. Some days the words flow from me like a geyser. And still other days the well runs completely dry. Things have been getting better lately as I have increased my reading/writing time every day. But damn it gets annoying on some of those slow days.

My Mistakes

So I came to the realization a few years ago but I put off writing about it for a bit. I think I am finally ready to put this into my journal.  I am the only person to blame for all the mistakes made in my life. Some of you might be shocked to hear me say this and still others are wondering why it took my twenty something years to figure it out. And I am willing to admit that I have been blaming my failures on other people for a long time. I still don't fell like I should have many regrets. I learned from this things that I screwed up and I will use that wisdom to guide me going forward. I did but a few bridges that would be nice to have available to me, nut since I torched them I have to live with that decision. It is time for Ben to place the responsibility on how he turned out on Ben. I am somewhat ashamed that it took me this long to figure this out.

Life is simple, make choices and don't look back live with the consequences.

Poetry Break

I have been focusing on poems here lately and I decided to take today off to write about something else. I have no idea what that is going to be yet but I am working on it now.